Everything in my life is a mess.
The simple fact is I just have too much bloody stuff.
I was giving my room a thorough clean today (cleaning I don’t mind, it’s tidying I abhor)
My bedsheets are crisp and clean, my carpet vaccumed, surfaces free of dust, washing and rubbish taken out – and then I look over at my dressing table and my heart sank.
I simply cannot be arsed sorting through all the shit on my desk, so I did what any logical person would do; ignored it and left the room.
tidy desk, tidy mind.
Now I want to sit at my desk and go online, so I’ve had to shove everything to one side and stick my laptop in a newly created bare space. What surrounds me that I simply can’t just organise and put away?
Currently to my left there is:
A get well card from last month
Suncream from that time it was sunny
Bed socks I got for christmas
2 lots of moisturizer I don’t use
A burned out scented candle
A letter I was supposed to post over a month ago
Hair pins (including a grossly bent out of shape one)
A battery-less remote for my telly
Box of my nintendo DS games
Hair matt texturing paste (not even mine?)
A glitter bar from lush
A bookmark from the dog I sponsor at dogs trust
A pot of bright green eyeshadow
A hello kitty fork
Some friendship bracelets I bought the last time I was on holiday (2010) and meant to distribute
My keys (well, it’s a single key and half a dozen keyrings)
A photo album for my 21st birthday which I’ve been meaning to put photos in from my 21st birthday.
11 US cents and 1 british penny
Some of these things are obvious, socks should go in the sock drawer, sun cream and moisturiser in the bathroom, letters in the post etc, but what the hell am I supposed to do with 11 cents? Where the hell did I even get 11 cents from when I haven’t been to america in over 5 years?
Purchases from ebay are only a good idea at the time.
I thought I’d managed to whittle down the majority of my possessions down to two ikea storage boxes, apart from make up, which I’ve managed to whittle down to four drawers of a dressing table.
And a shoebox.
I’m going to stop being such a hoarder and actually throw shit away, I’m never going to post this letter, I don’t need a book mark when I own a kindle, and what the fuck is the scented candle still doing here?
I’m going to clear my stuff in order of importance.
First to go will be the majority of my clothes. I was hanging my washing out the other day when it dawned on me that I’d just pegged three identical long sleeved black tops on the line, and I was wearing a fourth. I also own three pairs of black denim shorts. Yes these clothes are versatile and can be mixed with just about anything but I don’t need multiples of every item.
A lot of what’s hanging in my wardrobe are things that I used to love and wear when I was a bigger size and can’t bear to throw out. There’s a particular skirt I adore and I’ve been pinning it down as I’ve lost weight but now it’s at the stage where no matter how I pin it, there’s a huge bunch of material sticking out at the side.
pictured: spidergirl dress, you know, just in case.
You think when you lose weight that it will happen suddenly and you’ll throw out all your old ‘fat’ clothes one night and buy a new designer wardrobe the next day. People never think about all the clothes you used to love and feel great in suddenly betraying you. It took me walking around college literally holding my grey denim shorts up with one hand before I accepted they no longer fitted me and threw them.
DVDs I will never watch, books I’ll never re-read, CDs I’ve already got on my computer. Old computer games that aren’t even compatible with my laptop anymore, scrapbook material and other various shit I’ll never use again. I will sort my possessions into two categories; things I use often and personal mementoes which will be put in storage.
much loved, now sadly much useless.
3. MAKE UP
This is going to be the hardest one, I went through my makeup not so long ago and got rid of everything that was running out or I hadn’t used or was crap and I didn’t like. And I was still left with an awful lot. I’m hoping if I get rid of enough of the above two categories I can justify keeping more make up. It’s not that I use it every day, it’s just that it’s always handy to have nail polish / eyeshadow / eyeliner in every possible colour combination, you know, just in case.
one of four
I’ve already begun on category 1, by creating a clothing inventory – yep. I created a spreadsheet on every single item of clothing I have, so I can see what to throw away, give away and keep. Watch this space. Hopefully there’ll actually BE space soon.